Depression of mine

Living in this world of mine
I feel so bad
I want to stop thinking of you anymore
All the memories we had
I kinda miss it though and
actually I really really did miss it a lot,
in the sense of LOADS
I really hope I could erase all those and
be my self, the girl I always wanted to be
in my life, my forever loving life.
I want to be tough but I know I can't
The way we ... together is still in my mind
even though I try to erase it and treat 'you'
as a good friend of mine
I'm just randomly posting this..
However, I really I could erase all these memories and
built a good new one
I want to stop thinking, being envious
I really want to and I know I could
Life is getting suckier
I don't know why I bring back all these
Out of sudden, I regret and
oh yeah, I regret a LOT
for all which I had done and I really hope
not to repeat again and
find for a better one
I don't understand why I'm all about this thingy
yet I know I still can't forget you
I know I should just treasured it in my mind and
keep it as a remembrance but
WTH. I can't and don't ever try to ask me why
I hope life would just be better.

-cheryl.C
depression of mine

I know I'm already half way making it by being strong and
I could be stronger.