Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year to you!!!!

Love you guyz...I am gonna make a

longer post 2mrw..I promise..maybe 2day..

I am lazy right now..I already post..

but got error..so can't...

RAWR!!

-cheryl

What I feel?

What do I feel now?

I feel that I'm done with you and I'm glad I

actually did it...

I didn't realize how stupid I acted the past few

days and weeks..

poyo. =X

and I got over you..

[thanks] for giving me this experiance.

No, I do not wanna thank you

you are nothing but a jerk ...[=.=]

I don't care what is wrong

BUT I am living with my own will

and life

you have absolutely nothing to do with me life

ANYMORE.

got it?or I could say NOTHING.

I realize all these are destined and I've to

face reality...

Cheryl here is done with you

and what is done is d.o.n.e

I don't of your past nor present...

I am living with it that I know you...cuz it takes

a lifetime to forget somebody :[

I am exteremely not happy with my lyfe now

I need you guyz and I love yea

mua needs you all

I am still young and wacky

I do not need you to live with me...

You are not really meaningful to me anymore..

Even if you are not with me

I'm okay cuz I don't want anymore miseries

Joyee and ShynLu..I love you guyz..

muacks*...

not l.e.s. just a lil but of sisterly love

and I am gonna take you as my wife if I could..=P

xD..just kidding..

I just hope...we will together forever..

and I love you guyz

*hugs*

the thing was the most painful thing in my life

I need to be independent

I don't wanna depend on my friends anymore

I need to get my life straight back

the past few months when I was

single, inlove.

I guessed both of us are immature

we didn't realize the responbility of it and

started this dumb thing

fralalalala...xD

"Forgiveness means letting go of the past. "
-Gerald Jampolsky-

-
"Love can no more continue without a

constant motion than fire can;

and when once you take hope and fear away,

you take from it its very life and being."
-Francois de La Rochefoucauld-

-
Any man who can drive safely while kissing

a pretty girl is simply not giving the kiss the attention it deserves.
-Albert Einstein-

-

fate;destiny

I know some of you thinks I am over-reacting or whatever

but I am really..

feeling that way.......I just

can't stop thinking of it

It didn't matter how it hurts and the pain on me

but I wish you kept your promises

all the promises you made were bullshits

You are feeling great and happy..

but me?numb..reason:YOU!

When I say, I don't wish to hang on like this..
People say " Then, do it now! "
But my point is.. How? Because I feel pain.
People get annoyed because I'm a gal

who mourns about the damn relationship too much.
They said " Get a new man. The real one and not the selfish ones "
Point is.. I'm scared and insecure.
They said " You're still young"
I know I'm still young, and that made me think..
Was it a right path to be with him?

I don't get myself..

I guess I've made the wrong decision..

and I always do

I wish I could forget everything now..

but I can't

oh yeah I can't :[

my life's a real disaster

hates lyfe

I really feel I'm acting like a bctch here

Life is gonne be back as normal..

Once I could get over it..

Which I already did

and..cheryl ze imperfectionist is

Dead at the moment

so, her post will be random...

cause she is living somethere in HELL.

crap. wth!?=.="

chiao*

She understands;& wants to be stronger..
I've made it this far and believe I'll go further :)

-cheryl

Imperfects..

It's not working now..

The day's coming and I wish you're here with me.
I miss those moments.

Most importantly, I miss you.
Crisis is pushing me to move on,

a life-changing experience.

But, what's the point when I still look back?

How silly. I look back everyday, seeing you in my life still.
No matter how strong I am now,

there isn't much difference.

Because.. because something is missing now.

Someone and someday will replace it?

I don't know. I don't know if I can let go.
It doesn't matter if I'm picking up the pieces alone,

somehow I think I deserve this and yet I deserve better.
I don't know how long it takes, but I'm still here..

still holding on and waiting.

The fact that you're not turning back is unacceptable.

I am stubborn, but I don't really care now.

Even if I could accept it, I'm still the same girl.

I'm not giving up, but I'm tired of convincing myself.

I break down and still feel the pain in me.

I know it takes time, but I still can't let go..

because I don't want to and I admit it. I really don't.

-

I guess, it's me who still can't let go afterall..
You're gone, as suddenly as you came to me..

-cheryl

Done with it.

Life's gotta move on..
But somehow, it feels like you're holding my life.
Damn, I'm so tired of telling myself..
"at times, I have to take things slowly..

and let myself adapt the new situation"
I was just thinking..
I should be glad I'd once possessed before and

I hope this relationship isn't gonna be the last relationship for me.

This hurtful relationship is a lesson for me and there's a scar there now.

Because of this, I tortured myself .

People out there are pretty annoyed because they

see me sad for no fckin' good reason and

I'm pretty sure they're sick of it now.

I really need to start accepting myself

and no more attached.

Longing for your return made me feel

the most painful feeling I've ever felt in my entire life.
Now, I wish time could heal it. It's time that matters now.
History.
Philophobia, I have.
People come and go and people change.
There's nothing left besides the memories you gave.

Those beautiful memories made me smile.
And I still miss those memories and

wish it could happen again,

but reality is not bringing them back anymore, I know.
Reminiscene and I guess I'm still young and

I've still not learn how to appreciate certain things yet.

But I did appreciate you. =]
Don't try to do something to make me feel hurt.

I know why you're doing all these. Please, stop that.

I've had enough. I know why you're doing so.

Cause you want me to get over it.

Don't ever try doing things like this.

It feels like you're dragging me and the more you do it..

the more pain I feel and I'd love you even more.
Don't throw them at me. It's painful.
Orange skies and I still remember.

-
" For the doctor, it was one more lesson in

his never-ending education at the

University - a special school of higher learning

called University of Pain, a school that

everyone attends sometime in life.

Pain is a school of higher learning... "

~*~

Sometimes life is agony.

"Just don't look back..and let go.."

and I guess I am done with it and I'm living in it.

-cheryl

Disconnected

Underneath all of this smile,

I've been hiding out for miles,

Im hanging on instead of letting go,

Walking alone, while the wind blow.

-

What's wrong with me?

I get so lonely,

Everyone is smiling,

But Im here crying.

-

I tried to belong,

It didnt seem wrong,

I hate being alone,

All by my own.

-

Broken off again,

No one seems to know my name.

-

I FEEL SO DISCONNECTED.

~*~

-cheryl

Sometimes...

Sometimes i start my day dragging my feet,

Sometimes i want to fly,

Sometimes it all makes sense to me,

Sometimes i just don't want to know why.

-

The voice in my head wont let me forget,

All the memories we had,

All of this noise is what keeps me from making a mess,

What have you been doing since i left?

-

Now that you're gone,

I know you'll never come back,

I heard you are doing ok,

But Im not , cause everything's gone.

-

Sometimes i pretend to be happy,

Sometimes i feel very lonely,

Sometimes many things reminds me of you,

Sometimes i just miss you.

-

-cheryl

haiz...swts~

Hi guyz!!!Ok...I am very lazy to post nowadays..

As u can see..LOL!!!!...Cause my life is.....

hmm.....I don't know..

Nywayz, I would like to thank my friends..

for your concern..I am recovering

from the problem..

No worries...

some of you wouldn't know what is it..

but..some knows...LOL...

okok..it's kinda like confusing..

and making people sesat right??...

haha....

warning: this may scare you.

Hmm...I guess...

Love hurts more than anything,

Never ever be sad for love

Be sad for a boy is not worth ur sadness..

Do not ever say...that a girl..

"can't live without a boy"

cause you can still live......

Love is not a compulsary thing in life..

Love is just a feeling....

So, if u are heartbroken..

Do not ever commit suicide..xD..

Cause it is seriously so dumb to do that..

I know..it is very easy to fall in love..

But..always think twice of doing anything...

Nywayz, life is like that...

Everything goes up and down...

Bad things and good things will always happen..

Never be afraid to face reality...

Cause to always have to solve problems..

anyways, i DO have that habit of going

"give him/her a chance lah".

this screwed me BIG time.

is it my fault i have trouble opening up now?

no, i don't think it is my fault. i honestly think

it is YOURS. to me, you are now officially

not anymore important than PISS.

yes, that liquid which

I FLUSH DOWN THE TOILET.
back to liars, i cannot stand them.

i will not continue further but here is a warning.

the next person who lies to me

about something which 'I' feel is a big deal,

YOU WILL BE SCREWED.
one way or another, you will be.

i will personally see to it.
i think YOU dance like a desperate -----.
i really do. but i don't really care.

I just wanted to get that off my chest.

.

i personally don't see the point in flirting

like there is no tomorrow.

i really don't.

you will lose your dignity...

maybe you don't know that you're doing it.

i have always found that reason to be BULLSHIT

but then again, maybe you don't. SHIT.

giving YOU the benefit of the doubt. again. and as usual.

.
even after i said i would stop.
I VOW TO BE ME
even if that means giving people the benefit

of the doubt and hurting myself.

but being ME also means sarcasm

when i get angry or me secluding myself.
i am gonna say this now and accept it.'

i don't have EMO moments.

there are only times when i am EMOTIONAL.'
the word emo is FAR too overrated for me.
it can mean sad to just being pathetic.
i am neither.
i am just being in touch with my inner feelings.
so, before i end this, i warn all young and old.
i am still ME.
i always will be.i KNOW i will

never be someone i am not.so love me or hate me,
YOU do not have a freaking choice.so, live with it.

GET A LIFE - coz i'm done pitying

that YOU don't have one.

*~*~*~*~*~*

It's too late a apologize and say sorry..

Tears streaming down..

A smile was forced on my face...♥

-cheryl

this post is kinda too..I dunno..

under 12 don't see plz...

I just simply post..

No offence..and the You..

doesn't mean anything.

I >3 You!!!!!

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone...

-

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me

through the day and make it ok

I miss you

-

I've never felt this way before

Everything that I do reminds me of you,

I love the things that you do

-

I really need you, I know..eventhough

the words are the same like When You're Gone..

I just can't find any nice ones anymore..

Which represents my heart..

I love you.

And all this means a lot.

XXX

-

I am desprate...cuz I miss you!!!

MY DEAR FRIENDS...

rawk on!!!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

-cheryl

L.O.V.E.

What's the point of hating me,

cause I'm just me.

---

What's the point of holding on to hatred when

you're only getting to yourself.

---

What's the point of going back when

I've not been the same old me

and I am regretting all the things I did in the past

---

What's the point of saying you're going ahead when

you are actually going off the track

---

What's the point of trying to read my posts when

I am posting weird and lame stuffs

---

What's the point of living as a fun girl when

I am going to a damn school

---

What's the point of having a relationship when

you know it is going to break

---

What's the point of loving myself when

I think my life sucks now

---

What's the point of feeling depressed when

sometimes things will never go back

---

What's the point of trying u to get me when

I dont' give you much

---

What's the point of blogging about all this

crap stuffs?..

Well..since it is my blog..I could right?LOL

-

Whats the point of

Whats the point of

Whats the point of

everything when it is already finished?

---

-cheryl

[Crapping type post again]

Emo.

p/s: don't read this cause it is lame and it may get you

to become crazy...[no offence~]

cause it is gonna freak u guyz OUT!!!

I am a emo. girl..I guess...

I get JEALOUS easily. I am angry!angry!...

ANGRY but I still can't find out why and the reason

that made me A.N.G.R.Y~..

Maybe cause my mum can't stop mumbling?

What she does is NAGGING..

And that get on my nerves!

But it is a SIN to hate parents..rite?

Maybe I am just making a fool out of myself, rite?..

I understand..I'm grown up and there is no reason

of me to keep acting so childish and

Oh g...I didn't say grown up, did I?

I am not a child anymore after my birthday...

Okok..I know you guyz think

I'm weird for posting all this stuffs suddenly..

but actually itz nothing, there is nothing wrong with me..

Don't be worried if you are*_*...

[cause there is nothing wrong with me] .....

sigh...am I a lmeo?...Lamer-.-

I am just trying to know whether I am a emo. girl or not..

but...I don't think so...yet..I still feel I am emo, alright..

Am I a loved girl??I am in a stable and good relationship???

Am I SUPPOSED. to be in one relationship too?..

Yes..for me..I AM!!!..I mean I can..

huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhU!!!!

Arghhh..nevermind..you guyz do not need to read and understand

the craps I am talking in this post..

I am *pissed of and totally out of my mine for writing/typing all this craps*

ishhyk~...I wanna stop saying crap d...

fine..I'm done talking crap....

what's wrong with the word -crap-??...

This post is stupid and lame......

Or I can say...WEIRD?..Ain't it?

Alright, I am done. *chiao*...

-------------------------------------------------------------

-cheryl

[out of my mind when writing the post]

(yet I still can't find out why~)

Love.

I love you.
私は愛する。 私へのあなたの愛はそんなに意味した。 私達が私達の自身の方法行く行けば私はまだ愛する。 あなたへの私の愛は停止できないことを原因私に水のよう、決して止めない意味する流れることをではない私は愛し、そんなに逃す。 私は私および私がまたことを決して忘れていないことを望む。 私の唯一無二の人I愛、somebody[you-know-who]。 私は愛する!

-cheryl