Fuss Me

There are so many things running through my mind..

Yes or no?

Right or left?

To or not to?

I don't know...it feels so weird.

and i'm having my mood swings nowadays.

maybe it wasn't a good idea afterall,

or maybe it was?

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I've been all alone,

like, don't like and back all over again.

I know i'm not perfect, neither imperfect.

I've been standing in the rain,

waiting for the one to rescue me, stand by me.

Now, even i've found it,

insecure feelings still can't get away from me.

but why?

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Nobody really understands me.

I'm sometimes secretive, sometimes everything spills out,

Sometimes hyper, and sometimes emo.

I've real bad emotions but is it normal?

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I feel so sad if i think of it,

but I feel happy too.

Because of this, loads of things came to my mind.

Did i choose the right pathway?

or the wrong one, again?

I always dreamt that time could turn back,

but i learned from my lesson that no,

time will never come back, it could only move on,

move on to the another second of life.

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Actually, most of all, its the feelings that counts.

No matter how far we are, or we ever be,

it will never break and continue to stand strong.

Maybe, i'm the one being childish,

playing the game.

I never understand minds, i never did in fact.

being emo thingy ain't really things i like to do.

I want to just enjoy this thing

yet, my heart don't always feel right.

I feel so scare for things to happen again,

for me to do stupid decisions

and do anything my mind thought of,

without thinking it for another time.

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If only god appeared in front of me,

and gave me the right answer.

I've been thinking of you, missing you.

but, did you?

Out of sudden, i feel so confuse. =[

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-cheryl.C ©

gives me hell