Big girl

You've grown up, girl.

Yeap, thats what i hear from people.
A new year coming which represents
Me,
13 going on 14.
Adding a number each year.
From a baby, to a kiddo
girl to a teen
next? teenager.
future? adult.

When i was young, i get so excited
I was so excited to get elder
thinking of it, i really don't understand why
Now, me getting more mature,
i don't look forward to it anymore
The elder, the more stuff to care/think about.
Sometimes, it really gets stressful till
I feel like giving up.
Still? Life as just got to go on.
No matter how I give up, it's still useless ain't it?

Grumbling, rambling, mumbling, blabbering
still doesn't help.
I always curse but
i curse for a purpose.
When i get angry, i start cursing like nobody's business
and if you hears it, i don't even bother.
Then, when i start complaining,
i tell myself,
grow up la cheryl.
So? to or to not?
Day by day,
Year by year,
Time flies fast when it comes to happiness;
Slow when it comes to sadness.
Its just that we didn't think it
actually, any of it was always the same
the ol'
tick-tock tick-tock of time.
We may be not bored listening to it
or the opposite.

Now, i sound so mature.
I never will understand life
I just have to find the right answer.

Actually, nobody knows how much i hate people copying me.
The more you copy me, i will feel the hatred in my heart.
I don't know why,
I just don't like people copying.
Can't they just be someone original?

I'm original. So?
Shut up and listen to MY story
and i will listen yours.

How much of complains, i still have to say this,
Haih, one more year.

-cheryl.C
growing up