Life sucks..

Some updates...

I've been very sad, at first I thought I could accept the FACT of life.

but I know this is the best I could do for her

I've been a lil' I said a LIL' crying session when I saw the pictures

I really can't bare, I didn't even want to let

my grandparents to see it. It really hurt my heart a lot

I didn't want them to cry...

You've really changed in the outside

but I know, that you'll never change in the inside

WHY does all of this have to end?..

I thought I could go and visit you, see you..many people

had cried for you

so, you must know how much blessings you actually got

For last words : I will always MISS YOU.

Nywayz, life is like a ship, it goes up and down..

Many unexpected things will happen somehow someday

So, everything in life will end, it is just that WHEN is the time...

Humans wil die when it comes to the right time

So, love life while you still CAN and understand

the meaning of life, why did GOD gave you a life? you're not

handicapped, you're so lucky compared to OKU people

so, enjoy life while you still can.

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Ok, now about school...this week is the so call " English Week "

There were activities held in school

and one of them is Choral Speaking

and my class is sure gonna suck at it, cause they are so not

co-operative, the script is so LONG...

and everybody *beh tahan*

So, we will be competing with form 2's..of course will lose la..

RIGHTY-O?

and our script is the same like 1E..

and I heard a quarter of their script and it was BETTER than ours

Say it again???BETTER!..Urgh..

I betul betul give up..and exam is next week..

So, stressful, today I was like studying geografi??...NOT.

I wanted to..but I didn't cause I was watching the thing and after

that I didn't have the mood to revise. so, I just

made the decision to BLOG.

but I read some la...arah and kedudukan..blarhblah..

I guess tomorrow, I'm gonna start studying..*hardworking look*

=D

So, I guess I'm not gonna blog until my exam finishes..

Lazy larhh..

Nywayz, CNY is ending on thursday..ain't that too FAST??

Yikes!!Give me the angpaus if you haven't!! =X

Heh-heh, gambling session will end soon!!Urgh..cannot untung liow

Lolz...

K la, I am very lazy to post..I wanna watch Happy Tree Friends ady

Bye for now! Chaoz. =D

-cheryl.C

R.I.P.

To my dearest aunty,

Sue Kong Swee

9 May 1955 to 11 January 2008

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You're gone. You're gone from your family and friends

and of course ME.

I know, that she has gone to a place far better then earth.

She is with the LORD in peace
and she will be well loved, protected and cherished there

You will always be my aunty, now and forever.

I don't have much words to say but..

I know I shouldn't be sad though..

yet

Tears was streaming down my face

It was forced with a smile

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We will always miss you

The Lord bless you my dearest aunty

You're the best mum, aunt, niece, daughter anybody

would ever wanted.

I'm sorry for not being with you in NZ but my love will

always stay here. XXX

You're the lady, woman who saw me being the kid

who was very naughty and playful

I'm glad and real proud of myself, I really am.

Farewell, till we meet again.

With love,

your dearest : niece's daughter

-cheryl.C

[and this was actually one month ago,

overdue post I know.]

i LOVE......

i LOVE :

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BOYS - cause it's kinda fun hanging out with them and cause i'm straight' =D

watching the TEEVEE- its a hobby. an unhealthy one
but it's mine nonetheless

EATing- no need for explanation. =)

me FAMILY and FRIENDS - once again, no need for explaination cause'
they are the most loveable ones.
XXX

Travelling - my ideal job,which could let me
travel and make me earn loads of money to travel..
har-har.BOO!

watching MTV's - they are just awesome

MUSIC - music is my live and it make mwah LIVE =))), :DDDD

watching shows on AXN - I just love it, all those challenges
like amazing race, fear factor and you can
mention the whole lot of it

my LIFE - I know lots of you won't believe this
since I'm having problems with myself but what-so-ever,
I am actually glad with having the great relationship
with people in MUA life, other than that,
urgh..it is all..rubbish

hearing to me FRIENDS LAUGHTERS - it makes me laugh and i'm happy with it

my computer : it made me blog! *see the point?

Photography - I know I am not good at it but,
I still like it oh, I meant love. =X

DRUMS - oh, don't mention about it, it just ROCKS! =D

MONEY - $$$ money is the only thing I need

those awesome tv dramas - its COOL.

FOOTBALL - Oh, so rite..It's my passion and I LOVE IT

Manchester UNITED - it is just priceless, the love in it

WINNING - who doesn't, righty-o?

LAUGHING out LOUD - i really do. I will go
LOL. LOL. LOL. LOL. LOL. =)

CamWhoRing - I go snip-snap and wheee!!

GOD - God gave me trust and all, I love you!

[Eventhough I didn't trusted GOD 100%
in the past but it is different now kay?=D]
BLOGGING - yeap.....SAY WHAT!!!!!!!!
I didn't say that did I...
hmpph..
BEING all to MYSELF - I just need it, I need a little space
FREEDOM - that's what I love, no naggings, blabberings and etc.
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the fact that you all bothered reading this whole thing.

IF you did. lol.

coz actually there is sooo much more to love.

but, that's for another time. =)

I'm so lazy to post anymore. gtg. CHAOZ

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loads of love

-cheryl.C

Happy Valentines Day!!=))

Hey guyz!!..The last two posts was kind of crappy and lame rite?

FORGIVE ME THEN.

Imma SORRY. ForgiveMe, Kay?

Nywayz, lets get back to my topic for todayy.

As *MOST* of you know, today is Valentines Day...

A day which boys giving girls presents or friends and etc.etc.

couples will go on a date together on this

*romantic* day..

Haha, I don't want to get it into too much detail nywayz.

So,

I would like to wish all of you out there

"Happy Valentines Day"

May all of you and couples out there celebrate it

with JOY and HAPPINESS.

Not like me, staying at home crapping imma blog..xD

K lah, lazy to crap about the day..Now

back to what I actually wanted to BLOG.....

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I guess my two last post was about theory of life?

HAHA.LOLZ?

I am just being like the one stated in the blog. I am the YOU!

Sometimes, it really made me realize that I should "BE"

like the girl *lecturing* in the post.

I know I must be stronger since I am already gonabe teenager.

*coughs out loud*

she didn't say she was a teenager, did she actually?=P

I am actually just typing what I feel like.

So, if you think I am annoying or what-so-ever[hellavu yes]

just ignore me ok?

Cause it is only and just ME!! me me me!!

You can never ever hange who I am.

Never ever say I copied anybody's style. All these in the posts

are written by me! Even if I copy, it is still me, my own ridiculiow style

and you never lived in my shoe before,

so tell me why you JUDGE me as you DO.

"I am who I am"

Ryl.i.am

C-H-E-R-Y-L-I-C-I-O-U-S

never ever try to be ME.

Cheryl.C, aha : THAT'S ME.

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NOW, I guess I am just getting bored, so I am posting this

[ I am not forcing you to read, under10, please don't. kay?]

i REALLY feel like telling YOU all.

Stop acting like damned fools la, you like to backstab

and this and that

You think what you are??THE QUEEN OR..KING?

You've no right to complain about ME okay

What I like to do is what I like.

It is none of your great buisness at all

You think you very GREAT?AWESOME?COOL?or WONDERFUL?

So not lah. you only know how to care about yourself

you always look down on yourself

be a big girl/boy la, stop acting like small little babies

I don't see the point of you all acting like it,

it is really horrible-o.

How dare you backstab me and complain about ME??

can't you just keep quiet for ONCE!

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Life is what you want it to BE.

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life's not 'whatever lah' nor is it 'what ever will be, ill be'.

it is about you picking your own paths and destiny.

no one can force you to do what they want you to.

it is ultimately your decision. you have a choice.

do not let others take that advantage from you.

so remember this the next time someone says

"you're useless" or "you are stupid".

just remember that life is what you want it to be,

not them or anyone else. l

ove life and live life the way you want to not anyone else.

amen? remember people, life's what you want it to be.

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get ready for non-stop clustered up nonsense,
which might sense to half of you yet only
the other half that is left when that half
who understands this post might understand only
fragments of it coz' you don't know it all,
actually, no one knows it all. we just TRY and FAIL.
why don't we just stop trying.
i don't think things are what they seem to be.
as a matter a fact,
i think things are but the opposite of what we expect it to be.
as the naked eye only sees what we want it to see.
hence, mirages and crazy people who only see what they have seen.
i need help and i need a lot of it.
at times, but then again, i don't think it is right to
oose others out without their personal opinion.
i dare say i am proud of us and
i think we are doing a really fine job.
but you, i do not think at times you have all the say.
and to say that we would not be getting it if we
disagreed is also something i am not exactly happy with.
I was trying to make the thing happen and you all was like
standing there and blaberring, mumbling?
that would mean being flexible enough to
bend the rule for something that sound better.
i am NOT satisfied.
then you ask, why do you act like you are?
what am i to say? what am i to do?
in the end i am not the one with the last say.
please do not take offence, this is just my heart'c cry.
mine, not yours. MINE. i cannot stand this last minute crap.
we have what? less than nine days to do the impossible.
further more, life isn't a bed of roses.
never has been never will be.
don't make it hard on me then.
coz' whne i push a lil', you make the biggest fuss out of things
you never were. never will be. you're not me. don't try to be.
at times, i cannot help but hate you.
i'm sorry, but i do. you're the dumb one.
I was pissed of at you. you really made me lose my temper at some times
who gives you, a brat, the right to question my attitude,
my way of doing things.
i know this post is getting very emo-fied but forgive me.
this is just random rambling.
. moreover the stress is consuming me like crazy.
so, please, help me. please.
i'm am so frustrated over all this, but i bet you already know, i memang TAK PUAS. actually, 'tak puas' doesn't even begin to describe it at times.
I know I should not be so small heart or whatever
but it sucked..people saying you at your back and...
urgh, I really thought you were my friend
I treated you like my good friend. now, I realize that
finding for a friend is so difficult. a true, loyal, trustworthy friend.

ok la..I am done crapping..

and I am posting some weird stuffs...for FUN?..=)

My Valentines Day Present :-

A colourful tube from Juen Jin..Thanks!

Roses from Haida and Brandon..Thanks..

Oranges from Jo-Yee, SueYin and Jojo. Love u!!

enough of crapping...for now...CHAOZ.

Loads of LOVE. XXX

-cheryl.C

RandomING.

COWARDS.

what are cowards?

from the oxford dictionary, it means someone who lacks in courage
personally, i feel a coward who doesn't dare to stand up for her/him-self

like when they feel like saying something,

they dun dare to put their name or they just plain dun say it.

so dun be a coward.. own up if u did something.. if not, dun bother saying it at all.

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Forgive and forget.

You've definately heard this,

'forgive and forget'..

but have u ever tried it? coz it ain't easy..

forgiving is tough enough..

put it together with trying to forget what someone has

done to u and u get the toughest challenge of ur life..

to me, forgiving someone if the person

doesn't noe what he/she has done, is no point..

and saying sorry just to get some on to forgive u,

is also kinda dumb to me..

so if u sincerly say sorry and u admit ur wrongs..

i dun think forgiving and forgetting is that tough after all..

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Being irresponsible does not only frustrate others,

it makes them lose faith in u when they ask u

to do something important

or when u say u 'will' do something.

So, do not ask for something you know

you will never take care of, and please,

do not think that you are the only person in this world.

News flash, other people, besides you, live in it too.

Either grow up and learn or shut up and listen.

I'm fed up of ur attitude, i thought you had changed,

but now i think i've been wrong all along.

I thought you would be less self centered and more 'matured'.

I know it it difficult when someone tells you that you are 'immatured',

but ever thought of the fact that you are?

It is not too late to change,

so i pray that God will bless your insensitive heart

and help you to change for the better.

If you are reading this, remember, this is for the better of your character.

Stop whining and complaining.

Stop giving other people the 'attitude'.

Change for the better. Please and Thank You..
God, I actually hope I COULD.

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I guess that is enough of crapping today

Chaoz.Bye.

-cheryl.C

Its Yesterday Once More

i actually didn't want to put this here

but i really think everyone needs a wake up call.
this is to everyone who reads this.
do make a change

cause i honestly can't stand any of this anymore.

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we all hope for the best.

do those things ever come?
please, i beg you to get over yourself.
i really think you need to realise that there is more to life than what you think.
life does not end when you gain a kg.
life does not end when you don't get things your way.
life does not end when you want someone to love you and they don't.
life is not yours to end and to wreck.
life is a great thing and you should be glad you are living one.

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please stop thinking like no one cares.
stop acting like you are the only one on the planet earth.
stop being someone else and be yourself.
please don't give me the same bullshit.
i am sick and tired of hearing,

"this IS who i am".
i know you and you aren't like that.
grow up or piss off.

no, i am not angry.i am just really frustrated.
you have a whole load of potential and you are just throwing it away.
what happened to using it for god?
what happened to loyalty?
what happened to being you no matter what?

what happened to you?
are you really that lost?

is there no way to snap you out of your slightly retarded state?

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i don't see how people cannot find life meaningful.
the way you view life is the way you live life.
if you find it pointless, you have not been to africa have you?
people all over are fighting for a chance to live and you are throwing your life away.
you may think your happy but do you know what is around the corner?
what is right around the bend?

damnation, that's what.

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Do you think living your life on a 'high' is safe?

living on the edge is dangerous.
get that into your thick and stubborn brain.
Do you think leaving is the solution?
where is your loyalty?
ask yourself that before you move on to 'bigger things' in life.
Do you think anyone cares about how many guys are on your side?
who cares if you have a 'lot' of friends,
when you have no real ones.
Do you think anyone cares if you are fat or thin?
here's the thing,no one does.
Do you think i care about you?
a helluva yes.coz if i didn't i wouldn't be writing this.

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i've been doing some thinking and i am who i am

.i may be fat.i may be annoying.i

may be so sharp-tongued i hurt some of you without even knowing.
i may have so few friends that i can count them with one hand.

but at least i love and know who i am
and i am me.
who are YOU?

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Its Yesterday Once More.......

Matters and problems are strucking me again,

I don't really know what is always wrong with ME.

Maybe it is nothing? but my mind is always coming out with a problem.

There are so many DO'S and DON'Ts in life and there is also

a word which always struck my mind which is MAYBE.

Eventhough I don't know what is wrong with it,

I guess a lot of people loves to use the word MAYBE and so on.

I don't really see the point in that word.

It either gives us hopes or let us down. Maybe this maybe that.

Maybe I am up to my depression again. See the word maybe?

Urgh, I don't know what I am talking about but what

I know is MAYBE is just something which makes me happy or sad.

Ok you see the point??Am I as the *idiot* as the theory of life above?

Oh helluva I am ONE.

I'm really being an idiot or fool of myself.

I need not think of miseries and even care of it.

I need to built and start a great life and be the girl writing up there.

I NEED TO. There is a MUST. I should forget things

Happiness are to be remembered and sadness should be not in

our minds anymore. So, to you guyz out there

I hope you also learned and got something from it.

P/S: This was a random POST yeah.

-cheryl.C

Official GREETINGS!

Ok, as you see..I am posting on the 3rd day of CNY.

and I will post about this 3 days..=)

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1st Day of CNY.

Woke up in the morning..wahhh..*wanting to sleep again*

Then I laze around in my comfy lovely BED

and later, I was FORCED..really forced to wake up and

take my *bath*..wear my new clothes..

which is a simple nike shirt and three quarter pants

fine, lets skip those lame stuffs

and then I got ANG PAUS...

AS EXPECTED.

Then I went to my aunt's house and collected

many many more angpaus AGAIN.

but I was late there..thanks to MYSELF. Boohoo!=(

and then I talked to my cuzzys and joke around...

about 12 something almost 1

I went home cause my friend came to my house already

har-har. Late-comer me!!

Then we waited for all my friends to come...

after that we ATE. Yummy-o.

and then my mum ordered extra food which is PIZZA

cause some of them doesn't eat the food which was there on

the table. xD..

then a lot of people came..and I

Collected angpaus AGAIN.

=) As EXPECTED. LOLZ.

After all those, in the evening...everybody went back

and at night I went to my another aunty's hse..

too bad, there was nobody there. =(..No gambling..

Boohoo!

Ok, done with first day..

2nd Day of CNY.

The same thing..

but today I went to Sepang..

not to watch F1 or whatever..but visiting

my grandparents hometown and I was bored and moody there

cause my cousins there all chinese-orang

and I am like a banana..LOLZ.

I am really one. xD[still dare to say~]

then, I had lunch in a restaurant..

food was not as good as my gandmother's one of course

then the adults were gambling and me??

Sitting down there watching a chinese movie..when my other

cousiins was gambling in my aunty's house back in KLANG.

kinda sad ain't it??but nevermind larh..I'm ok with it

since it happens every single year!..=(

then I went home at night..after that I went to my aunty's house

then me and my cousins started gambling

At first, I was losing my money =( but after a while I won

and if I am not mistaken I won around RM50? but then I lost a lil.

kinda *satisfied* look and guess what, I was actually the

*cheong-ker*, I won and I lost.

and it was loads of fun sapu-ing my cousins money

Heh-heh!

3rd Day of CNY.

Wokaayy...Today I ..hmpph..

I was actually invited by j0jo to go to her house

but I need to go to my uncle's house cause my mum asked me too

but she actually allowed me to go to j0jo's house

I am sorry cause I can't go yeah...

SOR-REH.T.T

So sad, I didn't go to her house!!SobxSobx

then of course, I went to my uncle's hse..My cousins was there

blarhblarhblarh and we started gambling..

har-har..I won and LOST but I think I lost a lot rather than winning

Urgh..Dang-it.

Nywayz, there should be no angry here and there

cause we must be HAPPY for CNY. Right?

I do not have much to say about 3rd day cause there is nothing much

and I am GROWING FAT.

I am eating non-stop. Eating and eating and eating

after Cny, I better make sure I go for an on diet session

to control my weight!

Ok, gtg..chaoz

-cheryl.C

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CNY is a day we need to forget about the past

and start a whole new year

and we need to enjoy life while we still can!

So, get on with the fireworks,

poker cards with the joy of gambling

and chit-chatting, wearing new stuffs and eating season!

I just hope you people will enjoy your life and stay happy on CNY!

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HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR...EVE*

Deck the halls with boughs of holly

Falalalalalalalalala

Imagine me..Doing HouseChores on ChineseNewYear Eve!

Ain't that bad??

Or you can say it as HORRIBLE-O?

Sumimasen!

Thats' why no time to go kacau you all.

LOLZ. =P

Luckily I escaped from some cause I went to Yuan Hsi's house.

Met up with them guyz and chitty-chat.

For quite a while..about 2 to 3 hours..Should stay longer

It was quite fun and enjoyable to hang out with them

and I hope this day will come again

Sooner or Later

So, got any people going anywhere?

Got plans??Going or smashing in to whose house?

haha, I want to join yeah! ss-nya me..

Ok la...

I think so I post too many yeah??

Hmmphh, don't hate it okay??Again I would like to say

Celebrate this jolly season with happiness!

Fralalala.

Peace Out.

God bless banyak-banyak.

I would like to wish my friends like..this and that

and most important: HUMAN beings

To my loved ones, Rock on!! Smile and laugh while you can

and never regret the things you did on

this enjoyable..

going to come CNY day!

May all your wishes come true! Fatt Choi!!88

P/S: Angpau's better come..!!I don't care if you are married or not!

xD..

ChaoChao.

-cheryl.C

Wishes..

Me again..

I forgot to wish to guys who view's my blog..

Happy Chinese New Year..

Early wish

but I still can wish you Happy CNY ...Eve!

LOLZ. I hope people will celebrate this blessful day with joy

and happiness

I wish everybody can stay healthy and wealthy forever!

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!

Love you! XXX

So, get ready and celebrate this joyful day

with your friends and family.

Got to go now. Bye!

-cheryl.C

CNY...cepatnya...

CNY is here again..Just a blink of eye..and..

here it is, CNY..

C to the Chinese...

N to the New

Y to the Year

and it goes Chinese New Year!!!

Chinese New Year is something that we should celebrate it

with JOY and HAPPINESS.

Hmmph, I guess I've nothing much to say.

-cheryl.C

Boy..YIKES!

I want to be A boy!!

Oh yeah, I really do..I've been acting weirdly

this days for wanting to be a BOY.

I want to be a boy..look like a boy, sound like one and...

really be like ONE.

I'm trying not to be those types* here

but it is..

IrresistabLe..I just don't get it..

urgh, I'm speechless..I'm trying to not be ridiculious here

but I have no needs to stop it rite?

I am so BLURRED with everything..she is s.e.s.a.t. in

her path of life..

and

She is s-p-e-e-c-h-l-e-s-s

Ok, this post is gonna be very short..I've nothing much to say

CHAO. BYE.

-cheryl.c

she still miss everything

Scho0L....

School is not that fun without YOU all!!!I really miss the olden days..

The time we were cracking our heads..laughing out loudly..

without bothering the teachers..It was definitely..2 Thumbs UP!!

I miss the times...I was beating you...

I was fighting with you..

I was even argueing with you..I miss the topic of chatting about FOOTBALL.

Now I've become bad in football stuffs..Cause there is not really someone

I can talk with..I can't beat people since..

all of them will be like..CHERYL!!Pain la..Don't beat la..

And..All these SUCKS yea know...I really really hate it..IT is RUBBISH!

Nobody enjoys football..

Most of the pure typical chinese in my school is only crazy about

BKB. And I'm getting addicted to it. When can I see

and talk about football with you guyz again??I MISS YOU ALL!

I miss the way we were saying Liverpool BOO!! same goes to arsenal and chelsea..

But it is always MAN.UTD RAWK!!The weird singings..

The stuffs you were crapping with made me laughed out really LOUD

sometimes..The time we were actually TALKING.

Not argueing..a nice chitty-chat among us..All those rawks..

Now, it is not THAT fun ANYMORE..

No boys making me laugh out LOUD as I LIKE.

I miss my friends, I miss you guyz...I REALLY DO!!!!!!!

When will all that be the same again?

a decade? a century..?

All this sucks..I will miss the olden days..

I MEAN IT.

ALL of it RAWKSS..........When we were debating...

Scaring each other..Chasing you guyz and beating you up..

It was AWESOME. triple thumbs up..

NOW, It is all NOTHING. Not even a single thing from you all

URGH!!!LIFE IS MAD AND BAD WITHOUT YOU ALL

Ok, done crapping.

CHAOZZ..CYA..

-sad

-cheryl.c