My real feelings...

P/S: I want to say out all my feelings. It maybe be long but don’t
Read it if you dun want to.
I know I am crapping and saying stupid things about all these
I know you are reading my blog
I really do
However, if you think I am too lame
to say all there stupid stuffs..ok, continue with it
it is ok with me cause I think I can make
myself happier or whatever
and do you want to know what I feel about you?
You are a coward that I know!
I just realized that you thought you were cool?
Nope, you were actually acting like a jerk and coward to me
Please shut up about my life
I am ok with it. I know I am fat, ugly, stupid, lame and
Lots more negative attitude but I think
I am ok with it. Whatever you think about me..
Continue la…I don’t want to care anymore la
I don’t feel that there is a reason anymore to care for you
Eventhough I am still wishing of you and
all those…this and that..
I feel I rather do it than hurting myself
I don’t know why I feel so jealous..
I really don’t know
I don’t think caring about you all this while
was worth my mind and heart
I thought you were my soul mate
but now I guess you are not anymore in my life
I want to ignore you..
yet I still want to see you…
I know it is difficult to forget the jerk like him
but it is the only way
I had move this far and I believe I could go further
I have to be s-t-r-o-n-g-e-r
I need to have strength.
Enjoy life while I still can…
This made me realize relationship is nothing
but it is just mend to be dumb
you talk ; you speak
I raise my voice
And I felt that love is nothing important anymore
I need to hang out with my new friends
And built a new life..
I can still get in touch with my old ones even though we are
in different schools but it is the only way
I hope I can forget about this
Irresponsible, incomplete, coward, jerk and
Jackass person..
I have no need to forget him. Just stop thinking about him
I don’t care if you are angry or mad at me
I know you hate me but…I just like to tell you
My heart still likes you
And I do not need you to do anything if
You want to. Cause I am telling all there
Straight forwardly, I don’t mind you hating me..
Even though my heart still love you
I know I will get to make me out of the way from
My life sooner or later
I need to do something
It’s a job I should do
I don’t mind anything you say about me anymore
I would just act nothing happened
You are very clever in it…
And from that moment, I knew you are just something
I should not be with or depend on
I didn’t realize how dumb of me to be with this
Playboy here…you like every single people
And play with people’s heart
Good good…you want to continue..No problem
Hurt more people and you will get the revenge…
I had enough of YOU. I never ever want to listen another
Lie from you anymore
All your words were lie…none of them were from your heart
I was stupid enough you think it was true
I feel like I’ve been cheat, played on
Urgh, you can continue living in that kind of
Stupid living way..I don’t care nor
I will mind about you, you think I am purposely posting this?
NO!I somehow need to expose my feelings
And I have actually lots more
To the readers, I hope you are not offended with this
I am just saying
I really really regret being with him
He lied, his feelings was also…
He planned all these..
And he just gave an stupid excuse…if you really want to
Can’t you just tell me the truth??
I know you dun want to hurt me..
But is this the only way?
You don’t know how dumb you’re acting now
I would like to tell you again..
Get A Life la, dun ask me who is it..I am sick of hiding it
It is YOU!!! You know it’s you so, do what you should DO.
I am really really fed up of you..
Get a LIFE!!!
Ok, I’m outta here..saying another word about you
Makes my hand tired only
Wasting my precious time….I am gone
In your heart, I know…
I am not pathetic blogging this post..
But this is what I could say..
And I really really hope you read this
And realize who you are
My love was true and you complained it was nothing
Nevermind..since I am already done with it
I don’t want to say about myself anymore
You think you are great in you life right?
Ok…go on, nothing’s wrong.
Happy?

I really can't forget the thing you did..

and I guess I never will..

I hope you can remember while you can..

oops..why did I said this?..

urgh..nvm..nothing...dun bother about this

however..this post..I don't even know wat I am saying

I'm all messed up!..DARN!

-cheryl